Pillar of Peace

In this crazy world - what is peace? For me, today, it is finding rest.

I feel like when I say I need to rest, or want to rest, I'm viewed as questionable. Rest has almost become a word viewed as negative or bad because how can someone do nothing?

And yet, we are commanded to rest! God clearly gave a command, in the 10 Commandments, to "honor the Sabbath."

Today is the first day in a long time that I have nothing planned and can do what I want.

I don't like that my world has come to this point. I want to change it. I miss Shabbat. I miss just being.

Thankful school is done and my girls can rest.

Thankful that we don't get caught in the crazy holiday busyness and just try to "be" in the moment.

I realize that sometimes I might come across as a grinch for not "celebrating Christmas." I'm thankful for those who realize that it isn't because I don't love Jesus - trust me - God the Father, the Holy Spirit and Jesus are my source of complete strength. I have my reasons for not celebrating. I now let my children decide what they want to do and I will not force them to be like me. My decision is me taking care of me and that is important.

This blog started with the title, "Rest." then I typed the line below, "pillar of peace" and I stopped... Peace is often thought of as being soft or wimpy. To be honest, bringing peace is hard work. Stirring the pot is not hard. One word or one action stirs things up. Getting to a place that there is peace is even harder. And yet, peace has a strength behind it that is like nothing else. I remember this about Shabbat from days past.

So, today I choose to rest. I choose to Shabbat with my Father. I choose to let Him love on me and carry me through the difficult moments. I will cry if I need to, I hope to find laughter. I will do my best to be a pillar of peace. And in all of that, I want to LOVE with His love the best I can.

Shabbat Shalom -

Rose